Falling for forever, wonderfully wandering alone

I was scrolling down my twitter timeline today and I came across a tweet RTed by Lisa Ruocco (gag for many obvious reasons) and as much as I *dislike* her, the tweet was relevant enough for me to blog. It's a link to forbes.com where they listed down 40 Things To Say Before You Die. Whaaat is was inspirational and spiritual and all that good vibey shit kay. Something I most definitely need right now. (good) VIBES.

In the midst of all the things we should say before we die, a few words caught my eyes and hit a little close to  home.

NUMBER 28.
"How can I help you?"

Because you want people to come to your funeral, and if they can’t make it, at least they’ll miss you.

I give as much as I can to anybody who asks and sometimes without thinking of any form of consequences that might come along too. Rules of karma ain't it? You do good, you get good. You do bad, honey your favourite hoodie will rip in a blink of an eye without any warning signs. Or maybe not. Don't you ever wonder when you leave, spiritually or not, will there be people missing you? And will they be missing YOU or your willingness to help? Ponder your lovely thoughts on that.


NUMBER 18
"This is who I am."

The nervous energy spent pretending to be something you’re not is better spent on practically anything else.

Identity crisis. I wouldn't say I have it. But sometimes when you reach that point in your life where you start to second guess everything you do and find little interest in things you used to be obsessed with is a little frightening isn't it? Because you'll feel as though you're losing yourself and you don't recognise yourself anymore. To find serenity within is one of the hardest things to do. 

NUMBER 11

"I don't care."

Being able to discern between what’s important and what’s trivial is a skill that will save your sanity and your schedule.

Come on you'd be lying if you say you've never put in too much care in things you shouldn't have. I struggle to ignore the shit that would eventually ruin my mood but sometimes I just care too much. Prioritizing what's good for myself isn't my strong suit. It drives my mother mad most of the time especially when I'm too distracted with things other than my studies. (Concerts not included they are a priority to me xo)

NUMBER 5

"I'm terrified."

Fear is an asset. It can save you from danger and alert you to trouble. Don’t ignore the tingles that run up and down your spine.

To admit of being scared over a certain matter is not my thing. Break me down to my utmost core, I will not admit until I surrender. This has only happened a handful of times and if you're one of the people I said it to, you're a keeper in my books. I may run. It's true, I'm one of those kids who hides from people who cares when things get hard. Animal instincts? HAHA.

NUMBER 3

"I made a decision."

Autonomy transforms any activity from a chore to an act of destiny.

I AM BAD AT MAKING DECISIONS. If you've known me for awhile, you'll realise that I suck at making decisions. Especially for myself. I'm the kind of girl where I wouldn't know what colour of clothing to choose and ends up buying two pieces of the same clothing but different in colours. I'm also bad at making life changing decisions. I would love to say "I made a decision" without hesitation one day. 

Welp, there ya go. Out of the 40 things that were listed, 5 things made me think. There were more but these are ~special~ Click here to view the rest!